Post-traumatic growth and resilience

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Table of Contents

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About Consent

learning good consentLearning Good Consent by Cindy Crabb of Doris Zine.

This is a very good zine on the topic of consent and should be required reading for everyone. It covers tons of important information: how we define consent, identifying abusive behaviour, consent in different types of relationships, how consent interacts with gender, and shares stories of consent in relationships. There is also an extensive “resources” list at the end for those who want to learn more.

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Let's Talk About Consent BabyLets Talk About Consent Baby by the Down There Health Collective.

Let’s Talk About Consent is a short introduction to the topic of consent and how it functions/should function in the context of relationships. The zine opens with a series of questions about consent designed to get people thinking about consent. From there, the zine presents Antioch College’s “Sexual Offense Prevention Policy,” an excerpt from Our Bodies, Ourselves on communicating about sex, and lastly an article from Rolling Thunder called “We are all Survivors, We are All Perpetrators.”

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lets talk consent Let’s Talk Consent

Let’s Talk Consent, from the Hysteria Collective.

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CaptureNot Without My Consent by Bullet Girl and the Enforcer

We are not exempt from being the oppressors– oppression is ingrained in our development. It is however scary to see in yourself that which you hate in society. Know what sexual assault is!

Realize the effect your actions have on people.

Let’s keep this shit far out in the open as we can

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consent philly stands upConsent

by Philly’s Pissed and Philly Stands Up

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a street car named consentA Streetcar Named Consent

This zine explores tactics for sexual consent and delight for college and beyond. It uses accessible language, and is full of tools and tips for making consent fun and easier. It was originally made for incoming students at the University of California at Santa Cruz.

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an interactive consentInteractive Introduction to Consent, An

Always wanted to know what the big fuss on consent is all about? Well now is your chance! Learn the basics of consent and how to express and implement it into life.

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don't rape each otherDon’t Rape Each Other!

Consent is a community issue!

brought to you by the Olympia Street Medics Collective

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Ask First by Cheyenne Neckmonster

ask firstResources for Supporters, Survivors, and Perpetrators of Sexual Assault is a collection of resources dealing with the topic of assault and abuse. It explores consent, the dynamics of abuse, how to be a responsible partner, how to support survivors, resources for survivors, and resources for perpetrators.

 

Empower yr sexy self

Empower Yr Sexy Self A Workbook by Cheyenne Neckmonster

A workbook zine from some cool folks at the Wench Collective in Kentucky.

About: sensuality, intimacy, sexual identity, sexual health and reproduction, and seuxalization.

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consentsusConsen(t)sus? Exploring Contradictions, Practice, and Politics. Also, Gay Sex

This is a compilation zine edited by Eric Levitt of Gay 4 Pay press and Jonathan Vallely of Broken Pencil. It consists of writings, explorations and personal reflections on and about consent from people who identify/or partially identify as men who have sex with men. Lots of text and great for anyone looking for a beyond Consent 101 read.

Writings by: Eric Levitt, Jonathan Vallely, Andrew Morrison-Gurza, Eddie of Gross Process/Doom Clouds Zine, Shakir Rahim and more.

Published October 2014

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Example Consent Policies from Medic Wiki

The purpose of this page is to collect Safer Space and Consent policies form a diverse array of events and collectives, so that organizers have a resource to find ideas, wording, and policies that fit their needs and context. Note that a lot of these poliies are centered around preventing and responding to sexual assault, but many contain much broader suggestions for making spaces safer and more accessible to all people.
Thank you to the Denver on Fire Collective for first collecting many of these policies.

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Accountability Processes, Communities Responding to Sexual Assault

Accountability Process Suggestions for People Working on Patriarchal or Sexually Abusive Behavior

Communities Against Rape and Abuse

Philly Stands Up- An organization that works on ending sexual assaultthrough spreading consent and restorative justice

Responding to Sexual Assaults at Mass Mobilizations from Medic Wiki

Thinking Through Perpetrator Accountability (from Rolling Thunder #8)

World Without Sexual Assault: For A Community Response to Sexual Assault

21Brainscan Zine #21: Irreconcilable Differences

I haven’t made an issue Brainscan in four years and I hope that this zine helps to explain why. Brainscan 21 explores my recognition of being in an emotionally abusive relationship, the attempts on both parts to right wrongs, the failure to do so, and gathering the strength to take the next step.

What if your private life in your relationship is vastly different than what other people see? When do you know you are in an emotionally abusive relationship? How to you gain the strength to get out of it? What do you do when you know you can’t handle the burden alone? What do you do when you feel so alone and terrified of the consequences of leaving, when if it means losing friends, a home, a job and a way life that you love?

These are just some of the ideas explored in this zine through a three year personal narrative that also challenges you to examine your relationships with power, to identify how you express the power you have, and also how you relate to the power that of others possess. But most of all this, zine is about revelation, rebirth, and growth.

44 pages, half sized

brainscan 26Brainscan Zine #26: What’s the Deal with you and Microcosm

I’m just going to say that this zine is not for everyone. 26 is my leave favorite number and I ended up writing about my least favorite topic that just will not go away!

In 2006 I wrote the zine Brainscan #21: Irreconcilable Differences. This zine was about my personal experience of realizing I was in an emotionally abusive relationship, finding the courage to move on and challenging other people to identify power and how they use in in all of their relationships. In Brainscan 21 I did not name name because I did no think it was useful, but in this zine I do. Several other people have approached me with issues they have had with the same person and I thought it might be helpful for people to hear a bit more of my story tying my personal experience with Joe to my business experience.

This zine is based on this blog post http://alexwrekk.wordpress.com/2010/07/29/so-whats-the-deal-with-you-and-microcosm/. People have kept asking me about it so I thought I would put it in zine format. The blog post is about my least favorite subject: my history with Microcsm Publishing, Joe Biel and his attempted and failed accountability processes plus input from a few other people. To lighten the load I also talk about some of the other stuff I have been involved with and things I’m looking forward to next year. 32 pages 1/4 sized and uncharacteristly text heavy. $2

Back cover illustration by Steve Larder

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it's down to thisIt’s Down to This: reflections… critiques, and ideas on community and collective response to sexual violence, abuse and accountability

“This huge zine (100 pages!) is a tremendous resource for people who are committed to ending sexual violence. The past few years have seen an upsurge of community-accountability processes of dealing with assault—and lots of questions and issues these processes have raised. This zine collects a multitude of stories, reflections and articles—from advice on finding a therapist, written by a perpetrator who is in an accountability process, to articles describing what different accountability groups look like, to raw stories of the failure of radical communities to step up and offer support to survivors. Intense and essential zine for people doing this work.” – Cindy Crabb

it's down to this 2It’s Down to This #2 : on sexual violence, accountability, consent, healing

Cover art by Shloka Ettna
This zine is 50 pages and features work by nine artists and activists on the topics of sexual violence, (self) accountability, building cultures of care, and healing. Contributors engage critical analyses of whiteness, racism, and hetero-normativity in anti-violence work, and think critically on how colonial violence and white-supremacy inform relationships to sexuality and responses to sexual violence.
Contributors offer insight to move towards healing and building cultures of care.

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The Broken TeapotThe Broken Teapot

The Broken Teapot is a collection of three essays that explore the limitations of current anarchist models of “accountability” in situations of rape and abuse. The zine raises a number of important questions regarding the “accountability processes” that have been developed over the past ten or so years to deal with these issues within the anarchist space. It’s an important piece to consider when thinking about how “broken” we all are.

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If a Man Commits Rape...If a Man Commits Rape…

If a Man Commits Rape in Newtown and No One Knows How to Deal with it.. Then Did it Ever Really Happen? is a zine that explores what happens when rape happens in a radical/anarchist community (in this case, Sydney, Australia, although the patterns are similar almost everywhere). It covers the author/survivor’s experience, the response of the “community” in Sydney, and uses this to share valuable lessons and insights about the importance of helping survivors and addressing rape within radical communities. It includes helpful ideas for how communities should respond to allegations of rape, how communities should help survivors, dealing with rape apologists, outing rapists, and more.

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BetrayalBetrayal

A Critical Analysis of Rape Culture in Anarchist Subcultures analyzes the ways in which rape takes place, is talked about, and is dealt with in anarchist subcultures. It looks at how anarchists often seek to “silence” discussion of rape by limiting it and/or preventing it and how those who do take the risk to talk about rape are often attacked and ostracized. There is also a critique of “accountability processes” and how they are often applied. Betrayal is a very critical zine to be sure, but it offers a lot for those who wish to move in new directions.

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Accounting For Ourselves by Crimethinc

This zine is a very good analysis of the impasse that seems to exist within the anarchist space around assault and abuse. Starting from where we are at now with a thoughtful discussion of the limits and failures of accountability processes, the zine presents an insightful account of where we are at and where the problems exist. In many cases, the criticisms are very insightful, even if the conclusions aren’t always the most comforting. In response to the current impasse, the zine presents some possible new directions including survivor-led vigilantism, prevention through gender-based organizing, prioritizing conflict resolution, and a concept of “concentric circles of affinity.” This is a very good zine that should ideally encourage a lot of substantive discussion.
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dealing with conflictConflict Resolution Circles.pdf

Conflict Resolution Circles.doc

This is a handout from the Rock Dove Collective that provides an outline for an alternative model of dealing with conflict — no police, no state, no hierarchy, no jail. It’s community-based and centers around bringing people who are affected by a conflict into a facilitated circle to talk about the issues and feelings that arise from the conflict. A good beginning.

Also included is a word document with an example script outline for facilitators, as well as an outline of what circles are and aren’t intended to do.

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rock dove collective.jpgRevolution in Conflict: Anti Authoritarian Approaches to Resolving and Transforming Conflict and Harm

This is a transcript of a recording of a workshop given at the 2008 NYC Anarchist Bookfair. The workshop title is Revolution in Conflict: Anti-Authoritarian Approaches to Resolving and Transforming Conflict and Harm.

This workshop explores anti-authoritarian approaches to conflict resolution and transformation, and takes a look at methods like mediation and restorative justice from an anarchist standpoint. While we consider the long-term relevance of these options (replacing functions currently carried out by the state “after the revolution”), the main focus is on strategies we can use immediately to resolve disputes within our personal and political communities, and to begin to decrease our dependence on the state for intervention in the aftermath of harm. It talks about the anarchist theoretical context for these strategies and about practical next steps in our communities for meeting our own conflict resolution and transformation needs.

The workshop, by the way, is fucking awesome.

Hear the original recording at:

http://www.radio4all.net/index.php/program/26976

The workshop was presented by Danielle, who is a founding member of the Rock Dove Collective, a radical community health project in New York City. She is currently designing a pilot Restorative Justice project that will serve as a conduit into alternatives to incarceration for serious and violent offenders. She also works with young men returning from Rikers Island, and has engaged in anti- violent, empowerment-based programs with ‘at-risk’ youth since she was one herself. She has taught creative writing in prisons and jails in Illinois, Georgia, and New York. While in Atlanta, she created a project to teach conflict resolution through the arts in ‘inner city’ schools and juvenile detention centers, and did extensive gang intervention work in her community. She is currently part of a collective that offers trainings in consensus and facilitation, and has mediated conflicts using a variety of approaches for everything from two-person to large-scale community disputes

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the revolution starts at homeThe Revolution Starts At Home Confronting Partner Abuse in Activist Communities

Denver On Fire is happy to present this incredible resource in zine format! Previous editions of The Revolution Starts At Home have been in full-page-booklet style (available at http://www.incite-national.org/index.php?s=114). This format is a bit more compact.

edited by Ching-In Chen, Dulani, and Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

Includes submissions from members of CARA, Philly’s Pissed, The Northwest Network, UBUNTU, INCITE! and more.

Concrete tools for community accountability organizing.

112 pages (28 double-sided sheets of paper in zine format)

denveronfire.org

 

CaptureTowards Transformative Justice

Generation Five has spent the last decade, with allies across movements and across the country, developing Transformative Justice. Transformative Justice is an approach to respond to and prevent child sexual abuse and other forms of violence that puts transformation and liberation at the heart of the change. It is an approach the looks at the individual and community experiences as well as the social conditions. It is an approach that looks to integrate both personal and social transformation.

  • Our aim was to develop intervention and prevention that aligned with:
    our analysis of child sexual abuse as both one of the symptoms and perpetuators of oppression and violence
  • politics committed to systemic change and liberation our commitment to healing, agency, and accountbility
  • the actual relationships and situations in which child sexual abuse happens the oppression and limitations of state responses. Through this we developed Transformative Justice. We will spend the next decade, with so many others exploring similar approaches, learning to apply the principles and practices of Transformative Justice.

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world without 2World Without Sexual Assault: For A Community Response to Sexual Assault by the World Without collective based out of Melbourne. World Without distro

This is the second newspaper put out by the World Without collective based out of Melbourne. Their new website, different from the one listed in the newspaper, will be http://www.worldwithoutsexualassault.org/ though it is not yet online. World Without also runs a distro at http://www.myspace.com/bottlesandbonesdistro, and they have an email address: worldwithout@lists.aktivix.org

The newspaper has articles on topics like grieving and mourning, myths about sexual assault, restorative justice, consent, and support.

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Radical zines

moral revolution coverMoral Revolution

Resistance is Fertile!!! A brilliant zine by Kriti Sharma about creating an ethics of love, a livable world, a yes in creation response with each other (based on Sarah Lucia Hoagland’s Lesbian Ethics).

Also see this political education agenda for an idea of how to use this magic in your community!

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frictionlines.gifVoices from the Friction Lines

As part of the DIY series at Charis Books and More, the oldest feminist bookstore in the Southeast, a half-dozen brilliant activists, thinkers and artists created a zine to respond to the literal and metaphorical drought that our planet, progressive movements, and our bodies are suffering. This zine provides resources towards wholeness, a spell, a word-search, do it yourself interviews for elders and young folks, poetry, a recipie and beautiful artwork. Defying the stories about scarcity all around us, this abundance of joy was created in only 2 hours.

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outlawvision.gifOutLaw Vision: Reclaiming, Truth, Power and Justice For Ourselves

A zine about responding to violence without reaffirming the biases of the law created in ONE HOUR (!!!!) by participants in an UBUNTU workshop at the Allied Media Conference. This zine includes strategies for response, examples of how people are organizing for transformative justice, a review of a one woman show, vision maps, an interactive advice column and more!

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watermelaninremix.gifThe Watermelanin Remix

This zine is a compilation of student poems and prose pieces in conversation with Paul Beatty’s The White Boy Shuffle. Remixing the poems in main character Gunnar Kaufman’s poetry collection Watermelanin, the students examined their own relationships to racism, gender, family, class, oppression and freedom. This edition also includes literary readings of each poem by fellow students and photos of the poets performing their pieces for an unsuspecting audience of bus-riders. This zine is highly recommended as a teaching tool for any class reading Beatty’s important work.

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Such a Fucking Problem

This poetry ‘zine created by POMK is a prelude to the website of the same name suchafuckingproblem.blogspot.com. Full of irony, rage and social critique this zine calls out assimilationist pressure, a culture of silence around sexual violence and apathy of all kinds.

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sex.gifS.exual E.xperience X.posed

This ‘zine presents a diverse array of sexual experiences from the point of view of female and women-identified individuals. The content of this ‘zine is specifically for grown folks, and the author hopes that this publication will find its way to women’s organizations, rape crisis centers and women’s shelters to send the message that we should all be able to tell our sexual stories without shame!

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doubleconsciousness.gifDouble Conciousness

This ‘zine by Michelle Oyeka provides a contemporary exercise in “double-consciousness” a term coined by W.E.B. DuBois’s in 1903 to explain the difficult, but important position of people of african descent in the Americas. Oyeka uses this concept to embrace her experience as the daughter of Nigerian immigrants, immersed in African-American culture and to create an aesthetic in which multiple views are valued. Oyeka’s zine features guest pages by Elisabeth Michel and Stephanie Darand.

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Black Leaders: Misleading the Black Community

This ‘zine by Jade Miller critiques the tactics of conservative black leaders and uses the work of figures as varied as Aaron McGruder and Barack Obama to imagine what effective black leadership could look like. This is a useful conversation starter for conversations about the 2008 national and local elections.

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Infection Confirmed

This ‘zine created by a team of pre-medical students of color seeks to examine and uncover the health disparities experienced by people of color in the United States. Including pieces on the significance of race and genomics in contemporary healthcare, the immigrant heathcare debate as well as disturbing facts and useful remedies, this publication seeks to infect the minds of its readers towards a transformation of the medical field.

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Learn Cursive

Download this handy-dandy self-explanatory zine by Jaime Danehey to learn or teach someone to write in cursive. Hear tell they’re not teaching this in school anymore. Keep writing!

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My Name is Me and Keeping it real

“My Name is Me” and “Keeping It Real” were both created by a multicultural group of women who respond to sexual violence in their everyday work in communities of color in consecutive 90 minute workshops at the CARE Annual Multicultural Gathering. Download these publications and open yourself to the range of knowledge and energy these nurses, rape crisis responders, teachers, filmakers, advocates, students, counselors and activists have shared!

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Hope and Vision The Persuit of Happiness in Times of Crisis

created at the Miami Workers Center, Miami FL

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Co/modified Bodies: A Collaborative Zine About Transformation

Created at University of North Carolina, Greensboro

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MPressed The YESPP! We Can Edition

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gender agenda easterGender Agender Lent 2012

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gender agenda 14Gender Agenda 2014

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gender agenda christmasGender Agenda Michaelmas 2014 BAD

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anarchicideAnarchicide

A zine about responsibility and intent in anarchist social circles. Plus fun illustrations. 12 pages.

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playing with firePlaying with Fire

Anarchist ideas are not dead things, to be viewed as a logical conclusion of certain ideas of justice, equality or “humanity.” There is no logical series, no precise and irrefutable argument that must convince a rational person.

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thenew connections manifestoThe New Connections Manifesto

Call for a new radical networking journal based on (Dis)Connection.

Pilot issue which includes a call for submissions, South Side ARA Anti-Fascist Scene Report, Combat Emasculation of M.L. King by Mondo we Langa, a Three Sisters Companion Planting tutorial, and information on political prisoner Tsutomu Shirosaki.

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antidrugmanAnti-Drug Mun Meetz His Match Drug Duel Comix

Apparently, part of this comix zine I put up elsewhere got censored, likely due to politically incorrect content. When I can, I will put up the last 4 pages of the zine.

But for now, you get a look at the best part of the work, with an ending that you get to guess at for now!

He he he!

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I want to let you in…

…to the shower of my heart.

The second in a series of anarchist personal ads.

This is for my friend Bobby and five anarchists in Cleveland.

from the Institute Experimental Freedom / Liam Sionnach

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rob’s revolting #2 eugene – city of doom!

this is a text-only revision of a zine i made in the winter of 2009, telling of my crash-and-burn after being released from prison.

not a happy tale, but things have only gotten worse since then. i do not recognize the optimistic person who wrote this – thinking it would be the first step in a healing process that would enable him to once again feel like part of a revolutionary movement.

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letterssix letters addressed to you

First published in 2010 this zine is composed of six handwritten letters addressed to unnamed recipients on a variety of topics ranging from Machiavelli and loneliness to Christianity and nature to addiction and unhealthy relationships to anarchy and nihilism to animals at the zoo to love and friendship.

http://patrokolos.tumblr.com

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the year of the firethe year of the fire

This is in large part a personal zine with letters reflecting on the past year, which ended up being transitional in nature for many of our authors. There was job loss, fires, relationships endings, and a general sense of hardship to overcome.

The zine also includes some winter recipes for chili, soup and vindaloo. Some DIY gift ideas, and radical christmas carols.

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disorganisationRuckus UW Seattle Disorientation 2011

This is the Ruckus (dis)orientation guide to the University of Washington. It is an inversion of college orientation guides: it orients you about communities and cool activities around UW, and the things that are actually useful to know. It disorients you from the university administration’s intended plan to sell you an alienated mass-production education while draining you like the capitalist vampires they are. We made this because we feel it took years for us discover many great things around this campus; so we’ll pass along the results from years of accidents and serendipity.

Includes articles on survival, campus organizing, the Seattle music scene, polyamory, consent, tuition hikes, anti-Sodexo sit-ins, the Canadian tar sands, poverty, Joe Hill, unions, Seattle newspapers, DIY publishing, anti-sweatshop organizing, El Salvador, the School of the Americas, Decolonize/Occupy Seattle, and a community calendar.

Ruckus is an independent newspaper for the University of Washington community by the Ruckus Collective. We are for participatory democracy, social justice, collective liberation, and resistance to killing the planet.

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Carcass in Our HeadCarcass in Our Heads, The A Mic Check

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the chimpanzineChimpanZine

-Contribution #1 by Pam Troglodytes (the meaning of life)

-A Question of Violence

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do you suffer from alienationDo You Suffer From Alienation?

from Autonomy//253 Distro

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CaptureNonviolent Communication Zine

Collaged with love for you by Liberty

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wake up teenageTeenagers Wake Up

resist to exist

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Community Struggle – Empowerment

ZINE womens self defenceWomens Self Defense #2

Stories & strategies of survival.

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self defenceFighting Back: Self Defense for Women and Girls

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intimate violence zineThoughts About Community Support Around Intimate Violence

Thoughts About Community Support Around Intimate Violence

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Community How To by Sage

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Tiqqun – Theses on the Terrible Community

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Everyone knows the terrible communities, having spent time in them or being within them still because they are always stronger than the others. And because of that one always stays, in part – and parts at the same time. Family, school, work, and prison are the classic faces of this form of contemporary hell. But they are less interesting as they belong to an old form of market evolution and only presently survive. On the contrary, there are the terrible communities which struggle against the existing state of things that are at one and the same time attractive and better than “this world.” And at the same time their way of being closer to the truth – and therefore to joy – moves them away from freedom more than anything else.

The question we must answer in a final manner is of a more ethical than political nature because the classic political forms and their categories fit us like our childhood clothing. The question is to know if we prefer the possibility of an unknown danger to the certainty of a present pain. That is to say if we want to continue to live and speak in agreement (dissident perhaps, but always in agreement) with what has been done so far – and thus with the terrible communities – or, if we want to question that small portion of our desire that the culture has not already infested in its mess, to try – in the name of an original happiness – a different path.

This text was conceived as a contribution to that other voyage.

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How To Put Together Your Own Consent WorkshopHow To Put Together Your Own Consent Workshop

The title of this zine, How To Put Together Your Own Participatory, Community-specific, Radical Consent Workshop, is pretty straightforward and a great description of the zine’s contents. In addition to the general theme of how to put together a workshop on consent, the zine also provides tips on facilitation, space and accessibility, and additional resources. The bulk of the zine is an outline with ideas on what to say, activities to do, and materials to include.

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Toolkits and personal stories of winning

 

Indigenous Young Women Lead: Our Stories, Our Strengths, Our Truths. Edited by the Native Youth Sexual Health Network

Through our work at the Native Youth Sexual Health Network across North America and during this process we have come to understand that our expressions of ideas and emotions are so much more complex and beautiful than even English allows us to show. Films, photos, spoken word, poetry, painting and storytelling – all are here and create a connected picture of Indigenous women’s leadership on this land. They speak about traditional roles before colonization began, how it continues and the creative ways we are finding to understand and implement those roles now – something we feel is absolutely central to addressing the challenges we face as Indigenous peoples.
This publication is part of a larger collaborative project called Indigenous Young Women: Speaking Our Truths, Building Our Strengths.

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I Am Here: A compilation of girls’ and young women’s experiences and thoughts on immigration

Girls and young women voice their experiences and thoughts on immigration on their own terms; tell their own stories and write about what matters to them.

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Our Communities, Our Words: Stepping Up for Racialized Girls’ Empowerment

Our Communities, Our Words, simply put, is the documentation of the best practices, reflections on programming, stories and experiences that have been shared by our Community Colleagues who are working for and with racialized girls and young women. The intention of this guide is to share frameworks, tools, and resources to support programming, and address the needs and experiences of the racialized girls and young women we work with.

Start Something Fierce: A Young Woman’s Guide to Grassroots Organizing

Do you want to start a project? Organize an event? This zine introduces the key concepts from young women who have done it themselves. Get information on topics like collaboration, leadership styles, fundraising, anti-oppression organizing, evaluation, communications, and growing your project. In addition, there are also inspiring stories, tips and resources!

A zine by, for and about young women living in the North of Canada.

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Zine Thrivin’

A collection of stories, art and profiles from and by (mostly canadian) young women of colour who work it.This zine consists of a variety of stories, art, and profiles from and by young women of colour, which shows how growing up in the Canadian diaspora can be HARD and how we deal with it. The goal of this zine was to celebrate racialized girls and young women but you do it yourself. In your art, in your communities, in your activism, in your cooking, with your grandma, in your languages. We thrive just by living on and by moving on.

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Make Some Noise

Get started in video, photography, radio and interviewing, cyber activism, hip-hop, spoken word and poetry!

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Zine Step It Up: The Young Women’s Guide to Influencing Public PolicyThis zine introduces the policy process and gives ideas for how to influence public policy at the municipal, provincial and national levels. Packed with information and inspiring stories, this zine is part of a Toolkit Series to help girls and young women take action on the issues that matter to them the most. Download zine pdf format (6.85 MB) This zine is designed to be printed out 2-sided, on legal sized (8.5×14) paper.

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Look Closer: Girls and young women taking action against poverty

Think youth today are inactive and apathetic? Think again!
Look Closer! celebrates girls and young women who are changing the world.

This comic book zine was a part of the 2007 National Day of Action awareness raising campaign.

Zine Dreams to Action (2005)

Make your dream a reality! This zine is a youth-friendly guide to learning the basics of community organizing. From Dreams to Action includes inspiring stories from other young organizers, as well as tips on fundraising, networking, evaluation, strategy, communications and links to other amazing resources
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Sex Critical

fuxkedFUCKED: on being sexually dysfunctional in sex-positive queer scenes. a queer&feminist perzine about being fucked up about sex

As the title suggests, a zine about being sexually dysfunctional whilst participating in sex-positive queer spaces. Written by four queers, this zine discusses feeling excluded from sex-positive spaces, the limits of consent, not feeling queer ‘enough’, bad sex and sad sex.

Some things about us (from the introduction):

We are a group of four white queers, and – despite differing gender identities – were all assigned female at birth and are now usually cis-female passing. We are all currently physically non-disabled, in our 20s, south London-based, attracted to people of various genders, have had shitty abusive relationships (mostly but not exclusively with men), are currently suffering or have previously suffered from various mental health problems, love cats.

Content note: these pieces include subjects such as rape, sexual assault and coercion, abusive relationships, drug use, self-harm, anxiety and depression. The writing also reflects cisnormativity and internalised homophobia and misogyny. Content notes have also been added to individual pieces where necessary.

Word-processed, 56 pages, black & white. Includes some hand-drawn pictures of cats!

2 fucked2FUCKED 2FURIOUS: still sexually dysfunctional in sex-positive queer scenes. a queer and feminist compzine on fucking and not-fucking

The follow-up to ‘FUCKED: on being sexually dysfunctional in sex-positive queer scenes’!

More writings on being sexually dysfunctional whilst participating in sex-positive queer spaces. We took contributions from around the world to put together 2FURIOUS and this zine contains writings from fifteen different authors. It includes responses to the first zine and the workshops we’ve run since its publication, and also discusses similar topics as before: feeling excluded from sex-positive spaces, the limits of consent, not feeling queer ‘enough’, bad sex and sad sex.

Content note: these pieces include subjects such as rape, sexual assault and coercion, abusive relationships, disordered eating and mental health issues. The writings reflect internalised homophobia and misogyny.

A5 size with 40 pages, black & white copy and hand-drawn pictures of cats!

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Can't fuck won't fuckCan’t Fuck, Won’t Fuck: a discussion on the limits of sex-positivity

Have you ever felt left out or alienated by sex-positivity and the way it plays out in your interpersonal relationships or in the spaces where you hang out? Have you ever felt pressure to feel/perform desire, to be (or be seen to be) sexually active, to have relationships or date people, to do non-monogamy (or to do it in a specific way), to have fulfilling/pleasurable sex or to have certain kinds of sex?

Do you feel like sex-positivity often ignores the reality of living, and trying to be sexual, in a racist ableist cissexist hetero-patriarchal rape culture? Have you ever felt like consent shouldn’t be framed in terms of sexiness? Does your queer or feminist community fail to make space for people on the asexual and aromantic spectrums?

When most of the queer and feminist spaces we have access to are explicitly sex-positive and/or centred around hooking up, talking about sex-negative or sex-critical feelings can often make us feel like kill-joys, pissing on everyone else’s sexually liberated parade.

This discussion aims to provide a safer space in which to talk about the above questions. We will also be exploring ways in which our queer and feminist communities can be more inclusive of those who can’t fuck, won’t fuck, don’t fuck, or who choose to only fuck some of the time.

more than who fuckthis is about more than who we fuck (and who fucks us)

This zine was born out of one part desire for a writing project and one part desire for more writing to be out there about the place of personal relationships in the struggle (against authority, oppression, domination…). The things that destroy us aren’t just the cops and the prisons, but the models of relationships that are implicit, taken for granted and sap us of our ability to imagine something different. These writings, in different ways, attempt to lay out some glimpses into fights against the things the writers were taught about sex, love and close relationships

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more than who fuck 2This is about more than who we fuck (and who we don’t) #2 REAL

We said before that this zine was born partly out of our desire for more writing to be out there about the place of personal relationships in the struggle (against authority, oppression, domination, and all the bullshit). I think the same holds true this time around. We’re still fighting against all the things we’ve been taught about relationships, and we’re still figuring out hot to have radically different kinds of relationships than those we were taught to desire, and still figuring out how to bring politics into our relationships and relationships into our politics, and this zine is just a few people writing about that fight.

Please email us with thoughts, comments, etc.
morethanfckng@gmail.com

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Abuse and feeling ok about sex negativity

how our histories ofi am no hero, and neither are you thoughts on how our histories of abuse inflect our anarchist practice

Contributions made in response to the prompt “How have our histories of abuse inflected our anarchist practice?”

-may be triggering.

-anonymous; keep it secret, keep it safe!

-title & quotes from Delete Me, I’m So Ugly.

-not imposed–print as booklet.

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Limited Sexuality

  • Flying – Kate Millett

Against Normative

Against False Positive Essentialism

Against Uncritical Liberation of Desire (privileged lifestyle politics)

Towards a radical subjectivity

Sex Positive

Sex Negative

Negative feminism, anti-social queer theory and the politics of hope

Delete me, I’m so ugly | New text on Madness & Despair

Forty years ago, the Socialist Patients Collective, embarked on a project to turn illness into a weapon. To hold on to the fear and paranoia that dresses our despair in its most vibrant colors; to claim that experience as valid, and as the very condition on which modern capitalism reduces sense, claim bodies as its subjects, and functions to generalize alienation. The gun followed shortly.

Three stories separated by almost a century links the terror of woman. In Daldry’s The Hours, Mrs. Dalloway lives and continues to reveal the tragedy of our world. There is nothing comforting that calls on the bodies marked dysfunctional to restrict their desire toward death. The body wants to fall, to submerge, to cough, to inhale the dark liquid and dissolve.

The house wife goes on strike, alone, acting as does the marginal factory or service worker. Stealing no longer keeps despair at bay; cheating can’t bring back the years of doomed performances ahead. The future is always bleak. Addiction, a slow death. She drowns her children, she murders herself. She interrupts, in the most grotesque and elementary form, reproduction, and she assaults the meaning of this world. Minus one.

Madness, addiction, dysfunctional positionalities. I am terrified by the pen mark of the doctor, and of the indifference afforded to me by the consciously depressed. I want to make sense of it, but I can’t. My texts, my speech, constantly acquiesce to the demand for rational discourse, molds into another author-function—disciplining her, and making room for me, and repeating the operation that gives encouragement to others who want to play with power. My experience drifting through twelve step programs will always remind me of a sense that there are those who want to hurt us, and then repair us. Who want to manage our despair, and reproduce the addicted-rock-bottom-body, the broken-mad-body, as a petri dish on which to make a different functional subject. While it’s important not to equate madness with addiction, the scandal of these dysfunctional subjects is nevertheless similar. The sadness provoked by the realization that these experiences find analogous homes in what could be called an emotional commons requires unblinking eyes, and, in the days we can get out of bed, collective self-organization of care. Should it surprise anyone that this “care” has come and will come again in the form of “force?” We chose to publish Delete Me, I’m so Ugly in order to contribute to a reading of our times through the lens of despair, to hone in on the intelligence of madness, and to continue to ask “Of what does our congregation consist?”

Sex Militant

dangerous spacesDANGEROUS SPACES: Violent Resistance, Self-Defense, and Insurrectional Struggle Against Gender

A collection of communiques and theory surrounding issues of women’s and queer violence, self-defense, and revenge.

Untorelli Press untorelli (at) riseup.net untorellipress.noblogs.org

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Toward The Queerest Insurrection

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‘Do We Scare Ya’ Cuz, We’re Not Afraid To Fuck’? Queer-feminist Punk Countercultures, Theory, Art and Action

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Enemies Rapists

Rapists, part 4 of the Enemies poster series from the Institute Experimental Freedom

From the opening paragraph:

THE RAPIST IS NOT A DEVIANT. RAPE IS THE NORM. RAPE IS NOT A CRIME OF PASSION; IT IS QUITE POSSIBLY PASSION’S FARTHEST OPPOSITE. PASSION’S CRIME PAR EXCELLENCE IS MURDER; WE MURDER FOR HATE OR FOR LOVE. MURDER IS AN ACT THAT VIOLATES “THE RIGHT TO LIFE” THAT IS PROMISED BY GOVERNMENTS; ITS LOGICAL CONCLUSION IS “PURE MURDER,” A VIOLENCE WITHOUT OBJECT. RAPE HAS ONLY ITS OBJECT. RAPE’S LOGICAL CONCUSSION IS “PURE DISTANCE.” THE RAPIST DOES NOT HATE OR LOVE ITS OBJECT; THE RAPIST ONLY FEELS DISTANCE. AT LEAST PERVERTS HAVE THEIR IMAGINATION TO FEEL AT HOME WITH. RAPISTS ARE ALONE EVEN WHEN THEY ARE WITH THEIR THOUGHT. THEY ARE THE SADDEST CREATURES TO WALK THIS EARTH.

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betch rag.B.E.T.C.H. Rag Issue No. 2

The second zine compiled by Austin ladies’ group B.E.T.C.H. (Beautiful, Educated Thunder Cunts from Hell). This issue is about navigating space. Not outer space, but the space we already occupy and move through everyday. How we are perceived in this space and how we learn to live in it. Contents range from essays and letters, to poetry and comics.

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A-Z List of Zinesters

Arise for Social JusticeAnd Still I Rise

Boise Zine Distroyour beautiful brusied legs Issue #1

Dean Spadethis is about more than who we fuck (and who fucks us)

Fucked zineFUCKED: on being sexually dysfunctional in sex-positive queer scenes. a queer&feminist perzine about being fucked up about sex

Generation FiveTowards Transformative Justice

HomomilitiaVancouver Rape Relief Does Not Support All Survivors

Hysteria CollectiveLet’s Talk Consent

Jacq ApplebeeThat Doesn’t Happen to Black Kids!

Kisha – If I Could Live in Hope; Sexual Abuse and Survival

Olympia Street Medic CollectiveDon’t Rape Each Other!

Morgan Muffel – Fighting Back: Self Defense for Women and Girls

North West Break the Silence How To Put Together Your Own Consent Workshop

Philly Survivor Support CollectiveConsent

Radical Sex NY & Support New YorkLet’s Talk: Feminist Communication…

Tiqqun Theses on the Terrible Community

Untorelli PressDANGEROUS SPACES: Violent Resistance, Self-Defense, and Insurrectional Struggle Against Gender

 

 

 

 

Laid Stuff I wish I’d known about SEX before I started having it

Info on masturbation, your first time, sex feeling good and how it doesn’t always feel good, learning to communicate, self image, saying no, being queer, and more. Tons of stuff piled into this tiny little zine.- Cindy Crabb

 

Bloodletter

One of the very best zines I’ve read in years. April Mei puts to words so elequantly things I’ve been trying to describe and make sense of for years – about growing up in and as a survivor of rape culture, learning to doubt her own reality, learning to read shock and horror as excitement, being trained to say “yes” and being so removed from your desires that you don’t know what your honest answer is. When does “can I” mean “whould you like this” and when does it mean “are you going to stop me?” What does consent mean when you grow up in this way.

And healing: fighting back, making it a goal to be around people who feel safe, dissociation and how do two people with histories of being manipulated sexually practice consent with eachother in the present. Totally haunting and beautiful. Everyone should read this zine.

 

Clementine Morrigan

ruptureRupture

Rupture is a collection of poetry, creative non-fiction, photography and visual art.

“Rupture bravely captures the emotions of trauma, pleasure and recovery. This series of poems, divided into six parts, takes the reader through the author’s experiences of sexual violence, discovering her sense of self and relationships, and how she has started her journey toward healing. Although some of the poems are extremely difficult to read, Morrigan’s work serves as a way for others who are dealing with similar experiences to begin to articulate some of their own pain. In ‘divine responsibility’, Morrigan writes “self love is a divine responsibility / because the goddess Herself / makes no mistakes.” The juxtaposition of the empowerment expressed in some of the poems and the hurt in others underscores the nuanced struggle of living with a painful history.” —Shameless Magazine

“Rupture is a bold, honest, and thought-provoking collection of poems and short narrative writings on female embodiment, violence against women, sexuality, and feminism. Morrigan’s accessible language and intimate tone invite the reader to enter into her experiences, which range from harrowing to exhilarating. She encourages readers to appreciate the challenging journey of the woman in patriarchal culture who seeks to honour her feelings, desires, and powers and carve out a truly independent existence. Her book strikingly demonstrates that women’s right to self-determination continues to be a poorly protected one and is a work that would appeal to many women who similarly struggle to live outside of sexist conditioning and norms.” —Herizons Magazine

seawitch9seawitch #9

This issue is largely about three things: being queer, being femme and being a survivor. It’s about the way those three things interact, internalized queerphobia, internalized misogyny and trauma. It’s about street harassment and femme embodiment. It’s about what it was like growing up queer, coming out at fourteen and experiencing a ton of homophobia. It’s about shame and wanting to be sexual with women and femmes and finding that really hard. It’s about the legacy of queerphobic violence, misogynist violence, sexual violence and cissexist violence manifesting in the body. It’s about being a survivor of sexual violence at the hands of women. It’s about astrology and digging deep and facing hard stuff. It’s a really vulnerable, heartfelt little zine.

seawitch8seawitch #8

Quartersize, 40 pages. This issue was made during a stay in Halifax, unceded Mi’kmaq territory. It’s about the stay in Halifax and spiritual shifting. It’s about gentrification and the violence of white guilt and an event on gentrification attended while in Halifax. It’s about jealousy, polyamory and femininity, writing about these things and designing a workshop on these things. It’s about the importance of friendships and valuing and grieving friendships. It’s about sex work. It’s about gender ambivalence, gender dysphoria and not feeling totally inside or outside the gender binary. And it’s about happiness and how stunning / staggering happiness can be as someone who has been in so much pain for so long. Very text heavy and sparse. Mostly words.

“It’s Mercury Retrograde right now. Mercury Retrograde doesn’t stress me out because I just slow right the fuck down. I’m grateful to be in Halifax at this time, working on projects, meeting cool people, walking around the city, hanging out with my love. In the mornings I’ve been doing my prayers and drawing daily tarot. There have been a ton of Major cards, suggesting intense things are brewing for me right now.”

seawitch7seawitch #7

Quartersize, 40 pages. seawitch #7 is about going back to school in the fall, navigating identity as a demisexual, having a pregnancy scare and coming to realizations about a lack of support for parents, families and kids in communities/movements, the need for an expansion of the meaning of reproductive justice and pro-choice. It’s about the intersections of polyamory and madness, having c-ptsd and trying to navigate polyamory, taking a break from poly and the need for support/resources for mad folks in the poly community. It’s about intoxication culture and being a sober addict and not wanting to ‘fit in’ and justice and access and sober spaces. There’s some heavy stuff about trauma, being an incest survivor and a multiple rape/assault survivor, having c-ptsd and the impacts of this, especially with regards to intimacy, trust, friendship, touch, sexuality. There’s stuff on gender, sacred femininity, revaluing femininity, being genderfluid and being ashamed of masculinity that it is ‘too’ femme. And it’s about recovery, spirituality and spiritual maintenance. Very text heavy. Lots of words. Lots of content warnings.

“I long for resources and discussion on polyamory that include mental health issues. I want to talk about how polyamory intersects with trauma and madness.”

“People praise me for my ‘radical vulnerability’ in my writing but in person I can barely say hello or ask you how you’re doing.”

“I see my femmeness, my femininity, entangled with my witchcraft. My intuition, my heart, my ritual, the way I am with nature, with the sky, the water, with my body, the animal that I am.”

seawitch6seawitch #6

Quartersize, 40 pages and text heavy. seawitch #6 is about self-naming and choosing to have three different names, it’s about gender, genderqueerness, multiplicity, femininity and masculinity (and femmephobia), it’s about being a survivor of child abuse, it’s about healing, recovery and spirituality, it’s about gendered violence, it’s about white supremacy and racism and some things white people can do to take responsibility for our position in these systems, it’s about learning to love again after surviving intimate partner violence, it’s about jealousy, it’s about learning a new tarot deck. It’s also an end of the year / birthday zine.

“healing is not linear. it is cyclical. we revisit the same trauma again and again with new insight each time. as long as we stay connected to our journey we are growing, even when it seems we have been plummeted to the bottom of another depression.”

“i think that, because of sexism and toxic masculinity, masculine people who are even slightly feminist or respectful to feminine people, are treated like special gems. even in queer spaces, we flock to masculine people, we hold them up, we long for their attention and praise.”

“i am a capricorn sun and a capricorn moon. capricorn is a seagoat. people often forget that and paint capricorn as simply a goat. this does not do justice to the entirety of capricorn’s nature. yes, capricorn is a goat: methodical, stubborn, single-minded when its sights are set on something, hardworking, slow to change. but caproicorn is not just a regular goat but a seagoat: deep diving, spiritual, intense, reflective, passionate, with an eye for the mystical and other-wordly.”

10649690_293740897487856_6646050823995953985_nseawitch #5

seawitch #5 is quartersize, 48 pages, text heavy with a colour cover and eight colour photos inside. It’s about being caught between the past and the future, reflecting, letting go, major changes and moving forward. It’s about hope, fear and courage. It’s about coming out as genderqueer, recognizing my demisexuality and making sense of my sexual history. It’s about trauma, sexual violence, being too drunk to consent and coming to terms with my past. It’s about trauma, recovery and supporting survivors in your life. It’s about spirituality and being a witch and seeking spiritual connection. It’s about university and navigating that world as an alcoholic and a survivor/victim of intimate partner violence. And it’s about tarot, specifically The World card.

“i realized that being a woman is a part of my gender but nowhere near all of it. i realized that my gender, which i stress about and which i love, which i revel in and am punished for, which i can’t describe and which i seek words to describe, is queer. it’s very, very queer.”

“right now i am describing my sexuality as queer, demisexual with femme4femme leanings. i am excited to give myself the space and the time to explore and develop my desires. i am grateful to be at a place where i can be honest about and let go of my past, making room for who i am today.”

“i write about this stuff because i know i’m not alone. i write about this because there are so many of us who carry the legacy and trauma of sexual violence. i write about this because this is my human experience, my truth, and it is nothing to be ashamed of. i write about this because i know my tears, though sometimes inconvenient, are ultimately utterly healing.”

seawitch4seawitch #4

Quartersize, 40 pages, text-heavy. This issue is about what it feels like to write zines, living in a culture that objectifies women and how that interacts with trauma, C-PTSD and emotional flashbacks. It’s about wanting touch and being uncomfortable with touch, supporting sex workers in action not just words and some experiences with sex work. It’s about systemic oppression, accountability and the problems with “call-out culture”. It’s about being a femme who doesn’t wear makeup, polyamory and depression. It’s about kindness, sobriety, addiction and recovery. It’s about feelings, breaking out of old patterns, change and hope. This issue is, as usual, a mix of thoughts, feelings, experiences, ideas. Personal, political and always blurring those distinctions. It’s honest, heartfelt and hopeful.

“like many writers, like many people in general, i feel a strong urge to just hit backspace and delete it all. the way i wish i could find every copy of some of my old zines and burn them. the way that writing and especially printing makes this all seem so permanent, so final. but it’s not. i know it’s not.”

“when i was working the most frustrating experience was when a client would try to argue down the price… arguing about the cost of my sexual labour is bullshit. i shouldn’t have to do it. if you don’t want to pay it then don’t have sex with me.”

“i know what it’s like to watch my communities do nothing because they like the people who assaulted me and refuse to believe they are “bad”. i am painted as lying, exaggerating, causing drama, etc. when all i want is to feel safe. yet, i know that my rapist didn’t rape me because he is a “bad” person. if only it were that simple.”

seawitch3seawitch #3

Quarter-size, 32 pages, text-heavy. This zine is about ptsd and trying to do polyamory while having ptsd. It’s about tarot, being gender-nonconforming and being a survivor who believes in nonviolence. It’s about veganism, accessibility and building alliances between people who have non-normative relationships to substance use. This zine was written while struggling with and trying to make sense of a lot of things.

“ethically i believe in polyamory. i know my partner does not belong to me. i know that they have the right to have desires and experiences outside of me. ideally it is what i want. it makes sense to me. but in my body and emotions, i feel horrible.”

“i am a gender-nonconforming femme. i use the pronouns she/her. i have a vulva. i also sometimes have a cock. when my cock is being stroked and sucked, i feel it. it is a part of me.”

“i do not want anyone to ever be assaulted ever again and that includes my rapist and the people who have violently assaulted me. i do not wish them the pain that they caused me.”

seawitch21seawitch #2

Quarter-size, 40 pages, text-heavy. This zine is about polyamory, working through jealousy and working towards compersion. It’s about tarot, spirituality, trauma, violence, healing and rediscovering inner power. It’s about intoxication culture, sobriety and valuing the voices of addicts and alcoholics, sober and not. It’s about hope and gratitude.

“i think about the girl who yelled at me on the street ‘you fucking liar he didn’t rape you’ and the cops who told me to let it go, to move on because he’s moved on but he’s still messaging me three years later calling me a lying slut. i feel helpless, that’s the truth. i’m exhausted. i’m fucking numb.”

“i was born with all my natural, divinely given instincts in place. i was born to be curious, to honour my own needs, to communicate my own boundaries, to speak my own truth, to be brave, to be honest, to be playful and to engage with life.”

“i want you to have all the joy in this world and all the pleasure and not just from me. i want to hold you in my arms and know that you were in someone else’s arms the night before, that you were held in those arms with love and care.”

seawitch1seawitch #1

Quarter-size, 40 pages. This text-heavy zine is about friendship, polyamory, love and queerness. It’s about loving being femme, ptsd, depression and internalized ableism. It’s about intoxication culture, spirituality, paganism and being a witch. It’s about fear and surrender.

“i am sitting at a table with a group of friends. across from me is my partner, my best friend, the person i am so in love with. next to me is a person he occasionally goes on dates with. she’s smart and cool and pretty and kind. we’re all laughing and i am feeling my feelings.”

“when we reproduce intoxication culture we create divides in our communities. when we reproduce intoxication culture we hold up a standard of normalcy and desirability that many people die trying to live up to.”

“i adore femmes. i notice and value femme skill sets. i appreciate the diversity and vast difference in the ways femme is embodied.”

fromthegreataboveshesethermindonthegreatbelow2from the great above she set her mind on the great below #2

This quarter-size, 24 page zine is about fear, change, things that cannot be put into words, courage and love. It’s about turning twenty-seven, sobriety and recovery, and feeling long buried feelings. It’s about grief, dissociation and trauma. It’s about vulnerability, hope and trusting the process.

“i am beginning to feel my feelings. the deep ones buried at the bottom of the lake. the ones i put down there for safe keeping. never to be felt again. except in drunken rages where they rose to the surface incoherent and violent, spilling forth in eruptions of shame and terror and grief and hatred. only to be buried even deeper in the blur of the hang over.”

fromthegreataboveshesethermindonthegreatbelowfrom the great above she set her mind on the great below #1

This quarter-size, 48 page perzine is about owning the past and letting go of it. It is about learning to love fiercely and with an open heart. It’s about humility, integrity, recovery and creating a new life in sobriety. It’s about trauma, pain, grief and finding new ways of dealing with these things, instead of just burying or running from the pain. It’s about consent, sexual violence, dissociation, ptsd, addiction and ultimately healing. It’s about forgiveness, hope and new beginnings. Most of all it is about love.

“i am ready to start writing a perzine again and it will be different than the zines i made before. i write this zine explicitly from a place of love. i write this zine from a place of awareness that i need other people. i write this zine from a place of courage and hope. i write this zine because i want to tell a different story.”

 

from the great above she set her mind on the great below #2

This quarter-size, 24 page zine is about fear, change, things that cannot be put into words, courage and love. It’s about turning twenty-seven, sobriety and recovery, and feeling long buried feelings. It’s about grief, dissociation and trauma. It’s about vulnerability, hope and trusting the process.

“i am beginning to feel my feelings. the deep ones buried at the bottom of the lake. the ones i put down there for safe keeping. never to be felt again. except in drunken rages where they rose to the surface incoherent and violent, spilling forth in eruptions of shame and terror and grief and hatred. only to be buried even deeper in the blur of the hang over.”

from the great above she set her mind on the great below #1

This quarter-size, 48 page perzine is about owning the past and letting go of it. It is about learning to love fiercely and with an open heart. It’s about humility, integrity, recovery and creating a new life in sobriety. It’s about trauma, pain, grief and finding new ways of dealing with these things, instead of just burying or running from the pain. It’s about consent, sexual violence, dissociation, ptsd, addiction and ultimately healing. It’s about forgiveness, hope and new beginnings. Most of all it is about love.

“i am ready to start writing a perzine again and it will be different than the zines i made before. i write this zine explicitly from a place of love. i write this zine from a place of awareness that i need other people. i write this zine from a place of courage and hope. i write this zine because i want to tell a different story.”

 

 

Skinned Heart Quatro

About recovering from an emotionally and physically abusive relationship – some of the details of it. I am always so proud when people have the ability to write about what exactly was the abuse, because emotional abuse is so commonly not recognized when we’re in it, and it can really help to see other people’s experiences – to be able to say “yes! That is what it was like for me too!” And it is also so good to read about her becoming herself again – learning to have confidence, taking care of herself, her current healthy relationship, still caring about the world and people.

Also about Assimilation and Resistance, living away from her family and longing for her cultural roots (living in Seattle instead of the South West), family history and that feeling of living in dual realities, and assimilation being hard to stop.

 

Skinned Heart Cinco

A small issue dealing with dark mania and rapid cycling, trying to remember the path out of the self-destructive feelings.

 

 

Accountability

 

 

Love Letters to Monsters #2 this zine is by Ciara of Learning to Leave a Paper Trail distro. It has some articles that I really like, about subjects I’ve been wanting to write about, like the weird cult of youth and the whole “growingup=givingup” bullshit, and how youth kind of sucks a lot of the time and growing up is about carving out own paths. There’s an article about collective work, and the complications of power. Ciara is pretty critical, but it’s a productive criticalness, pushing for deeper work from all of us, and always looking at her own place in things too. The article about consent is excellent, bringing up problems with “consent is sexy”, and people going to one workshop and thinking they know how to “do” consent. For me, personally, verbal consent doesn’t really work that great, and a lot of discussion around consent ignores that, so her article is really welcome.

Fighting Back: self defence for women and girls

this is a onesheet zine that has basic advice about self-defense. body language, verbal strategies, fighting moves. It’s a good guide for starting to do self-defense with your friends.

 

Gender Oppression, Abuse, Violence: Community Accountability Within the People of Color Progressive Movement

this is one of the best explanations of identifying and dealing with abuse within radical communities I’ve seen. It is very straightforward, defining sexual harassment, sexual abuse/assault and intimate partner abuse, talking about denial, minimizing, victim blaming, counter-organizing, and other ways people try to manipulate and get out of being accountable. It has a great, detailed section on creating an accountablity process with the goal as “transformation toward liberation”.

 

Mend My Dress

Neely is a really sweet and powerful person and a really brave writer. Her zines deal a lot with sexual abuse shit and healing. She was raped/molested by her father and step-brother, and also was in an abusive relationship. In this first issue of Mend My Dress, she is reading the book The Courage to Heal “in the book they tell you to write about the abuse and things related to it. The part of the book that helps me the most is hearing other peoples stories. so I thought, maybe i should just put all of my writings together in a zine format, maybe it will help someone else along the way.”

 

Mend My Dress #2

In this issue Nealy says “when i wrote my last zine, i spent a lot of time thinking about my past. thinking about my old homes and all the bad things that happened in them. but also, I loved a lot of those places. i wanted to have a space to write about them….so here is this zine

 

Mend My Dress #3the little match girl or my dead grandmother.

this issue is about hating her crazy grandma, and her death, and coming to peace, honoring the good things of her.

 

Mend My Dress #4: Leporiphobia – fear of rabbits What if little red riddinghood saw a rabbit instead of a wolf.

this issue is particularly hard for me to read. it’s about incest. When I first met Nealy, she had a little bunnyrabbit stamp that she was using on everything, which after reading this zine seemed just so cool and courageous. A stuffed bunny was part of her abuse history, and this zine is part of working through the triggers and shit it caused

 

Mend My Dress #5: Girl Love, Girl Revolution, stories of friendship

I wish everyone would write a zine like this one. It is stories celebrating and talking about the girls who were important in her life. I think so often we are not taught to think about or honor the girls

Our Own Response: Creating Healther Communities

this is about dealing with domestic violence in radical ways

See No Speak No

articles and questions about sexual assault. This is a zine Andrea and I put together awhile back. It’s two articles about dealing with sexual assault, and questions about consent (these are the questions that ended up in the Support zine) 3.25

 

Taking Risks: Implementing Grassroots Community Accountability Strategies

written by a collective of women of color from Communities Against Rape and Abuse

this zine is a description of CARA’s accountability guidelines for addressing sexual violence. It’s a great introduction to forming an community accountability structure.

the principles discussed are:

1.Recognizing the humanity of everyone involved. 2. Prioritizing self-determination of the survivor. 3. Identify a simultaneous plan for safety and support for the survivor as well as others in the community 4. Carefully consider the potential consequences of your strategy. 5. Organize Collectively. 6. Make sure everyone in the accountability-seeing group is on the same page with their political analysis of sexual violence. 7. Be clear and specific about what your group wants from the aggressor in terms of accountability. 9. Consider help from the aggressor’s friends, family and people close to the aggressor. 10. Prepare to be engaged in the process for the long haul.

 

Women’s Self-Defense: Stories and Strategies of Survival.

I love this zine. It really helped me to honor ways I’d defended myself, and to get the courage to learn new strategies for self-defense. It is a compilation of lots of peoples stories.

 

Survivor Support

Affirmative consent

  • Learning Good Consent
  • (Safer sex and relationships zine, facilitators guides, curriculum, resources and sample agendas)
  • Abuse is Not S/M and S/M is Not Abuse zine

Trauma and Recovery

Burnout and self-care

Community Empowerment

Accountability Processes

Workshops and trainings

Community accountability, anti-oppression, intersectionality and allyship: Resources for counsellors, agencies and the interface between community accountability and services.

 

Post-traumatic growth and resiliance

The Miniskirt

miniskirtThe miniskirt zine

Powerful zine written by 3 survivors of sexual violence who “were lucky to find one another and who grew together by hearing each other’s stories.” Fierce stories about surviving multiple rapes by strangers; rage and calm, fighting not to be ashamed, superpowers and those powers being taken away, survival and rebuilding a life post-rape. – Cindy Crabb

 

Mend My Dress

mmdcoverfinalMend My Dress: selected zines 2005-2007

Neely Bat Chestnut has compiled her zines put out between 2005-2007, which include the first six issues of Mend My Dress, as well as Dear Step Dad and Grit and Glitter, in a comprehensive anthology of early work. Chestnut’s zines are well respected in the zine community.Her zines cover issues ranging from incest, self-harm, the riot grrrl movement, feminism, friendship, fairytale, and healing as she reflects on her childhood and coming-of-age.

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Olympia Street Medic Collective

 

Philly Survivor Support Collective

color-cover-256.pngStrategies for Survivors

Our newest zine is out!  Strategies for Survivors is full of hints and tips from our experience, for survivors of sexual assault and the people who support survivors.

Click on the image for a black-and-white PDF download — it might take a while to transfer.  Either view it on line or click the “booklet” setting on your print options page to make a printed copy.

For printed copies on nice paper — especially color copies — contact us by e-mail at SurvivorSupport@Riseup.Net

We are grateful to all our collective members over the years, and especially the survivors and their supporters we’ve had the honor to know, for making this zine possible.

consent philly stands upConsent leaflet

What is consent? Consent is an agreement that people must make if they want to have sexual contact. The issue of consent can be a complicated and ambiguous area that needs to be addressed with clear, open, and honest communication. Keep these points in mind if you are not sure consent has been established.

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Strategies for SurvivorsStrategies For Survivors Leaflet

Offers suggestions for survivors and communities dealing with sexual assault. Specifically, it is about setting goals for what you’d like to accomplish and what healing could look like in a survivor’s life and in their community.

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Let's Talk: Feminist Communication...Let’s Talk: Feminist Communication…

With the full sub-title “Feminist Communication for Radicalizing Sex, Consent, & Interpersonal Dynamics,” “Let’s Talk” is a helpful zine exploring the connections between feminist communication, consent, interpersonal dynamics, and healing from abuse. Its focus on how we communicate with each other makes it worth reading, even for those already familiar with concepts of consent. It’s written in an engaging way and includes valuable information on gendered differences in communication, communicating boundaries and triggers, and consent. There’s also a number of activities aimed an encouraging further discussion and reflection.

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Tara Jay

blackout2Blackout #2

Blackout is a personal/memoir zine about memory and trauma.

“a memoir-fragment zine” Fragments of growing up poor, being hungry, working cornfields at age 13, physical abuse, needing to be the “sane” one, and the difficulty of creating a coherent memory out of the moments. the difficulty of moving in life. panic, self-sabotage, creative mania. imagination and memory. So beatuiful and dark. – Cindy Crabb

Stunned Lungs

Stunned Lungs is a poetry zine — Poems about sex, anxiety, class & poverty, family, illness, grief, hair-pulling, dogs, bodies & gender, street harassment, etc, etc.

stunnedStunned Lungs #1

If you have ever read the poet Shannon Olds, you know how poetry can tell a story stronger than a story itself. That’s what this zine is like. If you like poetry at all, you should get this. It is amazing. The poems tell a story of their mothers home a feeling of vertigo and suffocation; a story of body and sex, and such deep everything you really must read it. – Cindy Crabb

stunned2Stunned Lungs #2

another beautiful haunting poetry zine from Tara, with poems about love and bruises, annihilation and jellyfish, the last desperate thing we did. With a beautiful block print cover, each one hand printed and sewn. – Cindy Crabb

 

Nyky Gomez

BRZD_001Skinned Heart Zine Issue #3

Yo soy una Mexicana and I write a personal/political zine. [Skinned Heart Zine is a] Personal Political Mexicana perspective zine dealing with issues such as mental health, health, abusive relationships, race issues, sexual abuse, and generally living and learning.

Well it is my zine, so I like it because it allows me to connect with other like minded people in the world struggling with the same things that I struggling with.

“ The power of female friendships and support; fallouts and exploring the causes; sexism and wanting to learn from the collective pain and miscommunications; being a radical feminist in denial of the abusive relationship she was in; the loss of a few white friends; gardening; “I think a lot about punk and activism and the impression that each of those communities have left on me. I think about how much I have learned about people and communication.I think about how much my friends mean to me and how much they have meant to me. I can’t imagine who I would have been if I had not come into contact with these people… I started to forget what I was all about. I really lost a sense of my own culture, my sense of Browness, and I forgot how to connect with people who weren’t punks…” ” – Cindy Crabb

skinned4Skinned Heart Quatro
About recovering from an emotionally and physically abusive relationship – some of the details of it. I am always so proud when people have the ability to write about what exactly was the abuse, because emotional abuse is so commonly not recognized when we’re in it, and it can really help to see other people’s experiences – to be able to say “yes! That is what it was like for me too!” And it is also so good to read about her becoming herself again – learning to have confidence, taking care of herself, her current healthy relationship, still caring about the world and people.
Also about Assimilation and Resistance, living away from her family and longing for her cultural roots (living in Seattle instead of the South West), family history and that feeling of living in dual realities, and assimilation being hard to stop. – Cindy Crabb

jskinned5Skinned Heart Cinco
A small issue dealing with dark mania and rapid cycling, trying to remember the path out of the self-destructive feelings.- Cindy Crabb

 

 

skinned6Skinned Heart Numero Seis
This issue is about her relationship with her dad, the similarities and difference between them, and how her life has been influenced by his drug addiction and his on again off again incarceration. It includes a critique of racism and the prison industrial complex and who is legitimized in activist circles as “political prisoners” when every imprisonment is political. Reflections on how, despite the racism, sexism and homophobia that exists in punk, punk and anarchism have provided a way in to finding connection to other radical people of color, and other people who work on developing politicized language and action around racism.- Cindy Crabb

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Survivors Manchester

breakfcBreak the Silence

Twenty lads in Manchester come together to tell the collective journey of breaking their silence to find healing in the hope of helping others.

 

 

 

Tiqqun

tiqqunTheses on the Terrible Community

Everyone knows the terrible communities, having spent time in them or being within them still because they are always stronger than the others. And because of that one always stays, in part – and parts at the same time. Family, school, work, and prison are the classic faces of this form of contemporary hell. But they are less interesting as they belong to an old form of market evolution and only presently survive. On the contrary, there are the terrible communities which struggle against the existing state of things that are at one and the same time attractive and better than “this world.” And at the same time their way of being closer to the truth – and therefore to joy – moves them away from freedom more than anything else.

The question we must answer in a final manner is of a more ethical than political nature because the classic political forms and their categories fit us like our childhood clothing. The question is to know if we prefer the possibility of an unknown danger to the certainty of a present pain. That is to say if we want to continue to live and speak in agreement (dissident perhaps, but always in agreement) with what has been done so far – and thus with the terrible communities – or, if we want to question that small portion of our desire that the culture has not already infested in its mess, to try – in the name of an original happiness – a different path.

This text was conceived as a contribution to that other voyage.

Untorelli Press

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